Yesterday I was responsible for an "estate yard sale" for my parents... both of which are in an Alzheimers' unit.
Dementia- the evil beast that it is - took rational thinking and spent all their liquid assets before rational thinking of outside observers (family, dear friends, doctors & I) realized and intervened.
The idea of liquidating someone's assets (for them) who:
#1 don't know about it
#2 don't know about it but are required by "law" to "pay back" (until all $ value is gone)
breaks my heart.
While during the sale I loved watching people smile and glow as they purchased and provided new homes for old things... it was bittersweet.
A "must" - this liquidation is. While it is a requirement, by Medicaid, for my sweet elders to receive the oh-so-vital care they require - the "must" generates a grief in my heart that is so so heavy.
Today, unexpectedly, I was reminded that my Lord, my perfect Father, in His love for me, feels this sorrow that I feel.
I was also reminded that in His love for THEM - He, through this SUCCESSFUL "liquidation sale" is providing for their very-capable care.
Truly a win-win...(regardless how I "feel").
I look around and see those whom He has placed in my life to be what I cannot be. I see His wisdom and strength (when I am so weak in some areas in this process) manifest in those who stand firm when I waver. I am protected by those who see, truly see my "state" and say: "I've got this"... my Lord is loving me, through people.
So, I give thanks, dry the leaking eyes that have been welling and spilling all-to-easily lately, and smile, knowing my capable FATHER is holding us all in His loving arms.
Thankful for comfort He provides in the most unexpected places and ways...
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
I am comforted... indeed.